I am sorry for your troubles, I really am.  I know what you mean about sky rocketing inputs!  In a good year, it seems like we're just trading dollar for dollar (good crops & maybe good prices vs. always high (and getting higher) inputs) and in a bad year...well, it really IS bad.

I talked to a guy around these parts the other day, and he said that he needed a really good milo crop, or he was "done".  All he has ever done is farm....I know that there are countless stories like this all over.